Verse:
I don’t know how to deal with this
Sometimes I’m angry, or I cry for shit
I’m unfit, physically, mentally and practically
I cant believe I would be normal again now easily
I still got my chest burning in flames
Wish the rain of my eyes could pour out those shitty stains
My chest is heavy; I breathe all low n shallow
Inside a hot chamber in ribs still I feel its 0 degree low -
Fahrenheit, or maybe Kelvin, I don’t know what to choose
I’m starting to live in recluse, don’t know what the fuck to do
I’m tired, I wanna sit back in heaven or hell but from life retired
I wish the things that transpired, didn’t, in it we both got mired
By the mental torture, wish I could tonsure off the days
Which are roaming in my head, that’s all that I can say
Whatcha say people? Was I really in love
Or was it just a bigger crush at the end of the day?
Chorus:
Wish I could stop thinking, Wish I could stop breathing
I wanna jump off the bridge tonight, but I cant
Its shitty that with it more lives then I’ll be taking
Verse:
The problem is my suicide will be labeled homicide
Not that I have any intension of dying, cause I cant further die
Already the state of my mind, is complicated like the symbol pie (π)
It seems sane and peaceful like a Buddha gate, yet it aint fucking easy aye
In my rhyme words I wasted my tight verse, told no feelings going through am I
But how can I tell y’all what I’m going through when my heart to me doesn’t reply
How can I? How will I be able to if there aint no organ that with my mind complies
Told y’all I feel like screaming out loud,
But I know that it would be stifled by surrounding sounds
I wanna stop but I cant, when I want to write I cant
Nothing’s working right with me, not even worth now a one night stand
I don’t want to give a fuck, but I cant, cause I do still give a damn
Who am I lying to? Why should I lie to a bunch of people who don’t even meet me
Or will ever do? What can I do, but just to spit the true words, which I feel
Which are the thoughts, I say again, the thoughts whole day I reel
Chorus:
Wish I could stop thinking, Wish I could stop breathing
I wanna jump off the bridge tonight, but I cant
Its shitty that with it more lives then I’ll be taking
“Life is too easy to take away. Just one shot in the head and I’m done away.
But there are people who I am responsible to.
And though people who I loved took my life away
Those who rely on me, I cant take their’s away atleast..”